The Key Is To Restrain

بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم

Assalam alaik to all of you.

The story is, lately I happen to be back on Kpop thing, and fall for BTS. or something like that.

I've always restrain myself from falling to new groups or people, because I myself know the consequences of being an almost-hardcore-fan (because once I fall, it's gonna be hard for me to get up).

One of the consequences is I'll be watching all their videos, eng subs, searching for updates and all AND this is NOT HEALTHY at all!

I'll be all procrastinating, forgetting my responsibilities and all, I mean I know I can just like them and listen to their songs, but I'm the type that if I like someone, I'll be liking them hard there's no way of turning back ( but I happen to turn my back with Bigbang,).

And the best thing about BTS is that, this is the first group ever I feel like buying their album, which I think is not a good thing because it'd bring no benefit to me, plus its super EXPENSIVE!

And they are having comeback by the end of this month.

Which means lots of teasers, new songs, new videos dramas and all, pictures, and bias. *sigh

And at this part of crucial time, as an ARMY, I make a decision to stop this thing for awhile, to tone it down, I even uninstall V app, lol.

I need to control this fangirling thing. I need to restrain myself.

Being a fan is okay. It's alright, everyone has the rights to have a muse or bands they like, but not to the extend of acting like a stalker. (sometimes I compare myself with sasaeng fans, like the only difference is just me stalking online, they stalking on time).

SO, here I am. Like making the biggest decision of my life.

I just need to concentrate on my study. Soon I'm entering degree university life. I need to decide for my future. 

I need to stop myself from digging their infos, at least until my final exam end this semester.

Pray for my faith.