Comparatively Successful

Salam and hi guys!

It is currently raining heavily at where I'm at right now, and there's something that I want to share about, which has been hovering inside my mind for a few days now. Well, more like a week.

So about few months ago, we were 'viralled' with news of a UUM graduate graduating with  3.99  and hence awarded with Anugerah Pelajaran Diraja (Royal Education Award?). Not only that, the course that she was majoring was pretty new at the time, Bachelor of Law, Philosophy, and Business, and from I've read, this course is pretty difficult, I mean combining law, philosophy, and business? Whose idea is that?

Well it's not just her. My fellow highschool mate was also awarded with the same award, and she also got straight A+ for her SPM. And also all other successful, genius, and amazing stories which always got me thinking, why can't I do that?

Why I can't be like them? Why am I not as excellent in my academic or any other area that I can be heavily proud of?

Once back in school, my senior teacher assistant told us during the assembly the story of the youngest writer in Malaysia that debuted her novel in her teen. My thought back then was, why was it wasn't me? I mean I write stories too, I even write Malay poetry back in school. Why I didn't get any of my work published and have something that I can tell? Something that add value to my self worth?

I don't know if it's just me or there are other people who compares themselves with other people's achievements. Like why can't I be the one?

Until one day my economics lecturer said, rephrased, it is normal for students to fail, or to not get what they want or to achieve their target, you may target A+ for this subject but you might end up with a B instead. These things are normal. It is the hardship of a student that you will have to face.

What she said, has hit me in a way.

She made me realised that, I deserve everything that I have received. And in another thought, I also realised that everyone has different capabilities; different speed at learning, different method of studying, different mental capabilities, everyone is just different. And my difference is what God has given me. The UUM graduate's exceptional academic excellence is what God has given her through her mental capability.

I just have to be grateful with what I have, and acknowledge what is it about me that makes me different from everyone else. I need to believe that I am outstanding in a way, and continuously work to that. Improve and work at my own pace, as long as I'm improving, I am doing it right.

It is unhealthy to comparing ourselves success' and others' success. Everyone leads different life, with different background, different mentality, different support system, and so much more. Although that comparative thought often occur to me unconsciously, as soon as I'm putting down myself in that comparative thought, I need to take a break and count my blessings and be grateful.

I need to teach myself that instead of being negative and comparing my success and others' successes, I should be happy for them, learn from them, and be grateful instead. This way I can lead a happier life while improving it along the way.

I've seen that people on Twitter are quoting the tweet that asks 'what's your toxic trait?' and directly answer the question. I don't like the way people are anwering the question, but here I'm gonna put my answer and it is to constantly comparing myself with people that are known for their early successes, and now I'm going to train myself to not do so anymore, and be happier for people and myself instead.

It is time to really lead a positive life, and rocketing to infinity.

Short semester

Salam 'alayk guys!

Right now I'm in my second week of my 2nd short semester, and I have to say so far it's going great except for my time management *coughcough.

I registered tahfiz and Arabic for Occupational Purposes for this short semester. Tahfiz is not really like the generally tahfiz, I just have to memorize the first juz of the Quran, so every class is basically tasmi' session. Alhamdulillah I managed to catch up so far, mayeb because I've prepared earlier and memorized 4 pages before class starts.

Meanwhile for Arabic for Occupational Purposes (AOP), it's an alright I guess. Even though my Arabic isn't my strongest, but I think I'll survive and improve.

But the thing is... I just know that I CAN CHOOSE between AOP or EAP (English version of AOP). And I just heard that theday before yesterda. I was like what??!!!

I should've know that earlier!

But maybe God knows best. I mean I did intend to improve my Arabic skills during this short semester. I want to be at least fluent in speaking before I graduate. So I have to work for it, and maybe AOP is one of the ways I can improve myself.

And maybe I'll get the chance to work in Dubai later on. hohohoo


Other than that (the classes), on the first Thursday morning (like early morning the day wasn't warm yet) BroSyarief called me. Which was rare. He called to invite me to his 8am session, reading shortstories in arabic language.

So after I intended to improve my 3rd language skills, of course that's like a fish to cat to me! So I agreed. But it started 8am that day. And I was frantic, I had like 50 mins top to get ready, I haven't even had breakfast yet! ...and so I rushed to get ready and skipped breakfast and managed to grab a water bottle along the way. huhu

Which means, I have 8 am classes/sessions every morning aside Friday! As joyful as that sound, 8 am class isn't what I fond of. I loathe 0830 class, what more an 8 sharp every day?!

But I guess I'll survive. I can do this!


So that's it for my short semester. I hope I'll continue to be greaaaaat and have great days everyday and manage my time properly and make notes! and also to make use of my youthful days.

Hence I'm going hiking tomorrow with Hz which I am so excited about! Can't wait!


Have a nice day guys!

A miniscule step into adulthood, with Headache!

Salam'alayk guys!

It's the 4th week of the semester, and here I am today in misery thinking of my internship.

Courtesy of Mr. Ever Generous Google

There are so many things to do! I have to look for possible placement, study them, then work on my CV and resume (I'm gonna die for this! I barely have anything to fit into my CV!), and on top of that I DO want to intern at big GLC or MNC company that can benefit me in so many ways so I can prep myself for the after-graduation world!!!

*deep-breathe*

I'm not sure if I'm the only one who get headache and worrisome over internship. Because I do have some expectations and targets for my future career. One thing important is I don't want to work at some jabatan agama Islam.


But whatever about all that, now how am I going to build my resume and CV and make them appealing and yummy to my targeted future employers?

I've searched for some tips regarding CV, and I believe it is during this golden period of studies I can expand my expertise and knowledge with ease (or at lesser price). Some of the tips are to go for workshops, outside classes (like IIUM SMART offers Academic Literature Review class, or SPSS at cheaper price for students), or even signing up for online classes (there are loads of them for free!).

ALSO it is suggested for me to join any extra-curricular activities (which I was good at only during CFS and highschool) or get myself a leadership title with huge burden on my shoudlers. Hah. Honestly I've stopped joining any lineup or organising committee (I used to enjoy being one) because I feel it'd be tiresome to have night meetings at the center of the campus, and to rush for dues while studying for classes and assignments. I just need to concentrate on my studies (which starting to unsink from the deep sea).

And... lastly to totally benefit the internship with softskills and so on. When the purpose of me doing my CV for internship. *sigh.


Any idea guys? I reaaaally want to intern at big company so I can learn more on how an organisation operate at organise manner when the business is from east to the west. And also so I can work on my career plan.

Still working on it. working on it. .. ...



and I know my 2018 resolution is to write twice within a week. I'm so good at bluffing.


...Chayyok Kemy!


p/s: took the CV tips from The Guardian

Lessons from Kimi Ni Todoke (both manga and anime)

Salam 'alayk guys! And good morning too!

So as I have promised, I will talk/discuss/type on further about one of my favourite anime/manga ever, Kimi Ni Todoke! (although it's been a month already).

I'm sure everyone who likes anime and manga have heard of this title and even watched them, the anime and live action movie! The live action movie is just so cute and adorable, I love the actress that portrays Kuronuma.

So cute.

Ok ok. Back to topic. I first watched the anime, then read the manga (because I couldn't get over how cute Kuronuma*Kazehaya). Therefore I'll start with what I've learnt from the anime, then from manga, because the manga is still ongoing and has extended until their 3rd year of high school (the story starts from freshman year).

First of all, I don't know if I'm the only who feels this, but from the anime I can assume that the Japanese are so expressive with their feelings..?? Like they will just say out loud what's been on their mind, with honesty, and I think that is really cool. It seems like they prefer to have the other party to understand how they have been feelings, or it's just Kuronuma.. hahaha

Second, Kuronuma is such a tidy and optimistic girl! Can I borrow her optimism for the rest of my life??!!!

Third, honestly there's not much that I took lesson of from the anime.

What really impacted on is the manga.

Only one point.

It is how the classroom teacher, actually told the students to think of what they wanted to do after high school when they were only junior in highschool. They still have 2 more years until graduation, but they have been pushed to think of their future, of what they wanted to do, whether they want to stay and help with family business, or further studies in universities, and if they choose the latter one they would have to think on their preferred profession, WITH THE GUIDE OF THE TEACHER!

You see, in Japan, they teach the students to plan their future. They teach the students to find what they want to do, and help them to pursue it. They are trying to fully utilize their human resource by not wasting every talent and interest the students have!

Meanwhile in Malaysia, at least when I was still in school, people just asked "what's your ambition?", "what you wanted to do in the future?" just to fulfill the introduction requirement for ice breaking. No going further than whats-your-ambition.

Back then there were lots of typical answers: teachers, policemen, pilot, doctors. Even one time I opened Biology textbook to look for an answer, and I picked virologist. (Hey, I did get A for my Bio!). Students were encouraged to have doctor or engineer as their ambition, but were never guided on how to reach them. Oh wait, they did! "If you want to be a doctor you have to get straight A's for SPM!". Fullstop.

That's it. THAT WAS IT.

Watching and reading Kimi Ni Todoke make me realised how much I wasted my teens not planning my life career. How I've been missing on my interests and passions.

Why I said so?

Because after SPM, I didn't know what I wanted to pursue. I've always have this vision of owning a book-cafe, but majoring in Business Admin was not an option (I'm sure my father be against it due to tight job market). I like sciences but I couldn't continue in Matriculation Science stream because the one I got offered was like at the end of the world and my mom wouldn't want it. 

I didn't filled in my UPU with science major because my mom predicted I wouldn't be able to make it, because I had hard time with addmaths (but I do like maths and got B for addmaths). 

And in the end, I guess I was lost and I didn't study well about options available I ended in Islamic courses for my undergrad studies. It's not bad, really, but my weakest point, even weaker than addmaths is Arabic language, so I had to struggle a lot, I even broke down and dysfunction few times.


My point here is, I feel so regretful I didn't find out what I like, what I wanted to do before I finished my SPM. Now, after few years, I know I like maths (always), I like history, arts, business. These are the things that I have passion on and I found it a bit later than I should.

Feeling this way, I think non of my juniors should feel lost after SPM, or feeling discouraged in college, just because it's not what they wanted to do. Students deserve better.

If they say they wanted to be a teacher, then explain to them that they need to go to UPSI for best options, need get straight A's to be accepted. Doctor? A+ for sciences subjects, and if they want to pursue it overseas, see which scholarship suits them, so they know how to strive.

Highschool/Secondary school students need to be guided on how they are going to achieve their ambitions, so they know what they wanted to do. Don't let them study hard for the sake of brilliant SPM results, only to get lost after. Make them study so they can get what they want, so they can do what they wanted to do.

Don't be like me.

Laundry hygiene

Salam 'alayk guys!

Before I enter tertiary education, I have never ever seperated from my family, my comfort for more than a week. I've never been to school hostels, camps, and so on where I have to be totally independent of my days and myself.

So, getting into UIA is my first experience, and there's a lot of things I need to learn, including doing laundry.

But honestly, I'm not that kind of brat who don't know how to use washing machine, or doing washing clothes by hand, what's softener, and so on. Sometimes at home I washed my clothes by hand too, mostly to cleanse spilled drinks/food on clothes, or just to whiten my school socks (washing machine doesn't work on my socks).

Plus, I've been taught by my mom that fresh clothes from laundry need to be taken care of carefully. Like, in the process of transferring clothes from washing machine to laundry basket, you can't let them touch anything else, because 1) they're clean 2) they're wet clean. So it's easy for the 'clean' to be contaminated.

So now, in college, I don't get it, how on Earth the sisters here don't know the art of doing laundry!

Just now I was using the laundry room, and as usual I would make a timer on my phone so no one would touch my clothes when their turn has come to use the machine (because you never know how they handle your clothes from the machine to your laundry basket). And I was late just for 1 or 2 MINUTES!

I stormed down the stairs, barged into the laundry room, only to look at a SISTER trying to put my FRESH-OUT-OF-MACHINE CLOTHES into my laundry basket while they're still TANGLED TO EACH OTHER and my basket fell and my clothes TOUCHED THE FLOOR!

DAMN IT!


I don't know if she really doesn't care about fresh laundry or she's just being selfish because it's not her clothes.

She saw me and asked, "is it yours?", and I just said yeah, not once looking at her, continue handling my clothes from hand, and she did not deserve my smile or gratitude whatsoever.


GOSH!

Now I have to wash the contaminated clothes again.

So now since I'm agitated about what had happened, and in an attempt to avoid that happening again, I'm gonna list what to do when the clothes owner haven't come to retrieve them from the washing machine because you need to use it.

1) Look for the laundry basket. Then take a look at the size of the basket and volume of the clothes, is it balance or not?

2) If the laundry basket is more than enough for the clothes, then it's ok.

3) If the clothes doesn't look like it's gonna fit into the basket, you gotta see if the owner put any laundry bag into the washing machines, because that will gonna be the last one into the basket.

4) Start transferring the clothes. But remember to untangle them, and crumple them so they won't fall away or touches  the floor.

5) Prioritize the undies or small clothes, so they won't fall out of the basket since they're at the bottom.

6) HANDLE THE CLOTHES WITH CARE LIKE IT'S YOUR CLOTHES!

7) Lastly, make sure the washing machine is empty before you start throwing in your dirty clothes.



Hope you guys don't experience this thing like I did, and also hoping the sisters in UIA know the essence of being hygienic!

Student and Sleep

*This was written long ago and I didn't notice that I haven't posted it*

Assalamualaikum and ayya guys!

How's it going on? With life? Studies? Family? Love life perhaps?

Mine is totally boring, a total typical student life. It's just 3 weeks into this semester and I'm being overwhelmed with readings and studies! AND SLEEP!

GOODNESS WHY AM I ALWAYS SLEEPY?!

I don't get it. If I sleep early and wake early, I'll be sleepy. What more sleep late and wake up late! And these days the average of me getting into my dream land is around 1 am or 2 am. And the latest I'd get off around 6 30 am. Which is like 5 hours everyday. And I think that is considered as normal among adults. BUT WHY AM I STILL SLEEPY?

IT'S UNBEARABLE!

I don't want to rely much on caffeine, apparently my body won't accept certain amount of caffeine or I'll feel like I'm being drugged (caffeinated yes). So currently I just do some stretching and simple exercise and jump around after fajr prayer to shake off my heavy eyes. It work. for awhile.

Aside from my sleepy panda eyes (some people say my face looks sleepy all the time), I also have to struggle with my studies. This sem I want to challenge myself to make notes for every courses I take and to actually study with it. Make full use of my time and everything's given. And apparently, most of my courses require a lot of reading. Really. Like how? *just shows how much I lack reading academic books

Because depending on lecture won't be sufficient. I have trouble taking notes in classes, because I'd have to concentrate to the lecture, and at the same time multi-task writing notes. I tries. And I lose either one. Huh..

It's not really a problem about the readings really. It's just that I'm still in training in time management. I do get better than before, with the help of my bullet journal since I can keep track of my to-do-list and achievements. But...

Ok. I'm sleepy the whole day. And I can't concentrate on something for a long time (I swear I get distracted easily) except in interesting things. And in between of my classes I tried to study or do something during that time. But after my day ends I'll feel so tired and demotivated, and I have to decide for dinner everyday and it's always the same thing or nothing.

I can read during the night. Right. But I have to make my lectures' notes, and squeezed in my calligraphy practice. By that time it's 11 pm or 12 am.

And before I sleep I'd read The Host. I need to read something to relax myself right? Plus I don't want me too engross in my student life that I forget the pleasure of reading. The Host is fantastic.


Mannn I need to reorganize my life structure. 

I'm Back To School!

Assalamualaikum and hi guys!

I'm trying my best to post regularly, trying to make my bluff in earlier post a reality. I even made a list for future posts! 😁
So this is a good start right? Somewhat my unwritten new year resolution (goodness I am so late 😂)

So its 2017! When new year comes it is always a hype for everyone to start anew and get a new book of life! For some, new year means upgrading school life and be cooler than before 😎

While a month has passed for primary and secondary schools, I've just started my new semester yesterday! (I sound like a joy but really I do) During my semester break, I was doing nothing about college and reading, I was so not anticipating to go back to Gombak. I even dreaded it. But the time must come. Huh.

So I have to be realistic. New semester about to start, I'm gonna be a second year student, there is no way I can evade education. Hah. Education guys! I had to be prepared! Need to climb all that good grades and cgpa for a better future (sun is blinding upfront). Wow.

So what did I do? Well actually I did nothing. I started preparing when I packed my things for Gombak the day before departure (LOL), and that are mostly clothes and food. But I need to get into the spirit of learning! Then I have this one instagram account, dedicated just for studying, named @nurmiastudious . So I opened that instagram, and updated pictures of my books and such, and scrolled through other people's studygram (short form for study instagram , like studyblr). And... it worked! Well, a bit.

Okay my motivation rose a bit. Got inspirations to study from super-shockingly-good students all over the world. And my mom and sis brainwashed me to aim for higher. Higher what? Grapes. 😂

Then in Gombak, the night before my classes starts, I checked my pre-registered subjects and the venues for tomorrow. Packed my things. Update my bullet journal (I just started late January). Watched some study vlogs by @waystostudy. I swear her videos are so inspiring you that don't even realise you are procrastinating watching her studying. After all that no-fuss I pretended that I was prepared. Because I didn't. Really.

I ACTUALLY GOT INTO THE WRONG CLASSES TWICE! TWICE GUYS! Can you believe it? And it was all because my classes started on Tuesday, and I was looking on my Monday schedule. Luckily I didn't miss any class because of my mishap. Dang girl.

However-so, I was actually productive that day! This is all thanks to my own created bullet journal, I'm a bit more organised than before with all my realistic to-do-list. (angkat bakul). But it's true!


Aside from my classes, I also spent my day updating my study planner. Printed out new Semester Planner and My Study Planner 6 sets (one for each subject) that I used for last semester. The study planner was really helpful with my studies last time. I get to tracked on topics of each subjects everyday and plan my study sessions! I got these two printable planners from theorganisedstudent.tumblr . You guys should check it out. She prepared a lot of other printables, but I'm using only these two for my studies.

While I was doing my study planner.

However, I forgot to print my class logs. Because I made the template by myself, so I kinda forgot about it. When I was sorting the planners in my study file, it was then I noticed. And I had to make a new one. Class logs is to jot down lessons for sessions each classes. So everyday I'll write down the topics discussed according to each subject. I got both study planner and class logs idea from a senior in my university. I'll share my class logs with you guys later.

Completed semester's planner. And an example of  class logs.

So that was how my messy preparation and clumsy 1st day went by. But all in all it was all good. I enjoyed my day. And seriously watching waystostudy videos are so inspiring you'll get motivated just by watching her videos! I can't get out of myself her spirits in studying! I'm smeared with her spirits! HAHA

My day ended really early, I fainted as soon as I cleaned myself . So so tired.


Thats it guys. How my 1st day of my new semester went by. I don't know if this will help you guys with your studies, I don't share many tips, but I hope it will! Btw don't forget to check out my studygram @nurmiastudious !

Have a nice day!

Slow Rebuild/Restructure

بسم الله الرحمان الرحيم

Hey guys! Salam 'Alayk!

So as you can see, I've changed my blog address, and my blog title. Before it was 'dalammindaseorangremaja' for both but I think now things have changed and I myself have changed (and no longer a teenager hah so old), so I decided to change things a little bit, and will continue to do bits by bits in the future.

Hence the title Slow Rebuild/Restructure, because I'm going to change things for this dusty pinky blog. *ugh so pink!  

Just got some ideas and few things for this blog from another famous blogs, which I can never compare with. But why not I start now for a serious blogging? *ANOTHER BLUFF ALERT!

And... As you can see, I didn't post any Arabic posts, or essays as promised before. I believed it's 5 weeks already since the 'promised post'? IT'S NOT INTENTIONAL SERIOUSLY!

I had (and have) so many works to do, and I did like 3-4 arabic assignments so I was like 'this would cover my promised-blog-post and its in pages!' therefore I didn't do my essays because of that and restricted time.

Now? OH BIG NO! I so many hafazan to do, a presentation this Friday, notes, and studies for the upcoming exams, it's crazy! (hence my blog title 'Of Self and Crazy Life). Because I'm just good at doing crazy things. *sigh

I'll try my best to update as frequent as I eat , and wish me luck for my crazy attitude and upcoming exams (and hafazan and presentations and notes and crazy life)

Till next time,

buibui