.

 I thought this is hormonal.

Like how women always have their ups and downs in their moods?

But this is getting too random.

Stretched out and wide, my whole fiber being.

Most of the time, most of the days.

I feel the rush, the need to do something

to complete something, but my body seemed to stuck in a stroked heat.

It's running wild, wilder than it has ever been

That I'm starting to think things I have never ever dare to think before.

Challenging faith in everything I used to so pride in.

The tension within, it's... heavy, weighing everything down.

Dragging almost all the things I used to preach in.

Getting drown in my own air, how is that even possible?

And I can't seem to able to climb myself out.

And nothing pours out. Just stuck within.

Imagine, being stuck physically in one place, while you're actually running wild to places you shouldn't be in.

I tried to scream, but my head's under water.

Not even a muffled cry, no one heard anything.