Comparatively Successful

Salam and hi guys!

It is currently raining heavily at where I'm at right now, and there's something that I want to share about, which has been hovering inside my mind for a few days now. Well, more like a week.

So about few months ago, we were 'viralled' with news of a UUM graduate graduating with  3.99  and hence awarded with Anugerah Pelajaran Diraja (Royal Education Award?). Not only that, the course that she was majoring was pretty new at the time, Bachelor of Law, Philosophy, and Business, and from I've read, this course is pretty difficult, I mean combining law, philosophy, and business? Whose idea is that?

Well it's not just her. My fellow highschool mate was also awarded with the same award, and she also got straight A+ for her SPM. And also all other successful, genius, and amazing stories which always got me thinking, why can't I do that?

Why I can't be like them? Why am I not as excellent in my academic or any other area that I can be heavily proud of?

Once back in school, my senior teacher assistant told us during the assembly the story of the youngest writer in Malaysia that debuted her novel in her teen. My thought back then was, why was it wasn't me? I mean I write stories too, I even write Malay poetry back in school. Why I didn't get any of my work published and have something that I can tell? Something that add value to my self worth?

I don't know if it's just me or there are other people who compares themselves with other people's achievements. Like why can't I be the one?

Until one day my economics lecturer said, rephrased, it is normal for students to fail, or to not get what they want or to achieve their target, you may target A+ for this subject but you might end up with a B instead. These things are normal. It is the hardship of a student that you will have to face.

What she said, has hit me in a way.

She made me realised that, I deserve everything that I have received. And in another thought, I also realised that everyone has different capabilities; different speed at learning, different method of studying, different mental capabilities, everyone is just different. And my difference is what God has given me. The UUM graduate's exceptional academic excellence is what God has given her through her mental capability.

I just have to be grateful with what I have, and acknowledge what is it about me that makes me different from everyone else. I need to believe that I am outstanding in a way, and continuously work to that. Improve and work at my own pace, as long as I'm improving, I am doing it right.

It is unhealthy to comparing ourselves success' and others' success. Everyone leads different life, with different background, different mentality, different support system, and so much more. Although that comparative thought often occur to me unconsciously, as soon as I'm putting down myself in that comparative thought, I need to take a break and count my blessings and be grateful.

I need to teach myself that instead of being negative and comparing my success and others' successes, I should be happy for them, learn from them, and be grateful instead. This way I can lead a happier life while improving it along the way.

I've seen that people on Twitter are quoting the tweet that asks 'what's your toxic trait?' and directly answer the question. I don't like the way people are anwering the question, but here I'm gonna put my answer and it is to constantly comparing myself with people that are known for their early successes, and now I'm going to train myself to not do so anymore, and be happier for people and myself instead.

It is time to really lead a positive life, and rocketing to infinity.

Short semester

Salam 'alayk guys!

Right now I'm in my second week of my 2nd short semester, and I have to say so far it's going great except for my time management *coughcough.

I registered tahfiz and Arabic for Occupational Purposes for this short semester. Tahfiz is not really like the generally tahfiz, I just have to memorize the first juz of the Quran, so every class is basically tasmi' session. Alhamdulillah I managed to catch up so far, mayeb because I've prepared earlier and memorized 4 pages before class starts.

Meanwhile for Arabic for Occupational Purposes (AOP), it's an alright I guess. Even though my Arabic isn't my strongest, but I think I'll survive and improve.

But the thing is... I just know that I CAN CHOOSE between AOP or EAP (English version of AOP). And I just heard that theday before yesterda. I was like what??!!!

I should've know that earlier!

But maybe God knows best. I mean I did intend to improve my Arabic skills during this short semester. I want to be at least fluent in speaking before I graduate. So I have to work for it, and maybe AOP is one of the ways I can improve myself.

And maybe I'll get the chance to work in Dubai later on. hohohoo


Other than that (the classes), on the first Thursday morning (like early morning the day wasn't warm yet) BroSyarief called me. Which was rare. He called to invite me to his 8am session, reading shortstories in arabic language.

So after I intended to improve my 3rd language skills, of course that's like a fish to cat to me! So I agreed. But it started 8am that day. And I was frantic, I had like 50 mins top to get ready, I haven't even had breakfast yet! ...and so I rushed to get ready and skipped breakfast and managed to grab a water bottle along the way. huhu

Which means, I have 8 am classes/sessions every morning aside Friday! As joyful as that sound, 8 am class isn't what I fond of. I loathe 0830 class, what more an 8 sharp every day?!

But I guess I'll survive. I can do this!


So that's it for my short semester. I hope I'll continue to be greaaaaat and have great days everyday and manage my time properly and make notes! and also to make use of my youthful days.

Hence I'm going hiking tomorrow with Hz which I am so excited about! Can't wait!


Have a nice day guys!

A miniscule step into adulthood, with Headache!

Salam'alayk guys!

It's the 4th week of the semester, and here I am today in misery thinking of my internship.

Courtesy of Mr. Ever Generous Google

There are so many things to do! I have to look for possible placement, study them, then work on my CV and resume (I'm gonna die for this! I barely have anything to fit into my CV!), and on top of that I DO want to intern at big GLC or MNC company that can benefit me in so many ways so I can prep myself for the after-graduation world!!!

*deep-breathe*

I'm not sure if I'm the only one who get headache and worrisome over internship. Because I do have some expectations and targets for my future career. One thing important is I don't want to work at some jabatan agama Islam.


But whatever about all that, now how am I going to build my resume and CV and make them appealing and yummy to my targeted future employers?

I've searched for some tips regarding CV, and I believe it is during this golden period of studies I can expand my expertise and knowledge with ease (or at lesser price). Some of the tips are to go for workshops, outside classes (like IIUM SMART offers Academic Literature Review class, or SPSS at cheaper price for students), or even signing up for online classes (there are loads of them for free!).

ALSO it is suggested for me to join any extra-curricular activities (which I was good at only during CFS and highschool) or get myself a leadership title with huge burden on my shoudlers. Hah. Honestly I've stopped joining any lineup or organising committee (I used to enjoy being one) because I feel it'd be tiresome to have night meetings at the center of the campus, and to rush for dues while studying for classes and assignments. I just need to concentrate on my studies (which starting to unsink from the deep sea).

And... lastly to totally benefit the internship with softskills and so on. When the purpose of me doing my CV for internship. *sigh.


Any idea guys? I reaaaally want to intern at big company so I can learn more on how an organisation operate at organise manner when the business is from east to the west. And also so I can work on my career plan.

Still working on it. working on it. .. ...



and I know my 2018 resolution is to write twice within a week. I'm so good at bluffing.


...Chayyok Kemy!


p/s: took the CV tips from The Guardian

Lessons from Kimi Ni Todoke (both manga and anime)

Salam 'alayk guys! And good morning too!

So as I have promised, I will talk/discuss/type on further about one of my favourite anime/manga ever, Kimi Ni Todoke! (although it's been a month already).

I'm sure everyone who likes anime and manga have heard of this title and even watched them, the anime and live action movie! The live action movie is just so cute and adorable, I love the actress that portrays Kuronuma.

So cute.

Ok ok. Back to topic. I first watched the anime, then read the manga (because I couldn't get over how cute Kuronuma*Kazehaya). Therefore I'll start with what I've learnt from the anime, then from manga, because the manga is still ongoing and has extended until their 3rd year of high school (the story starts from freshman year).

First of all, I don't know if I'm the only who feels this, but from the anime I can assume that the Japanese are so expressive with their feelings..?? Like they will just say out loud what's been on their mind, with honesty, and I think that is really cool. It seems like they prefer to have the other party to understand how they have been feelings, or it's just Kuronuma.. hahaha

Second, Kuronuma is such a tidy and optimistic girl! Can I borrow her optimism for the rest of my life??!!!

Third, honestly there's not much that I took lesson of from the anime.

What really impacted on is the manga.

Only one point.

It is how the classroom teacher, actually told the students to think of what they wanted to do after high school when they were only junior in highschool. They still have 2 more years until graduation, but they have been pushed to think of their future, of what they wanted to do, whether they want to stay and help with family business, or further studies in universities, and if they choose the latter one they would have to think on their preferred profession, WITH THE GUIDE OF THE TEACHER!

You see, in Japan, they teach the students to plan their future. They teach the students to find what they want to do, and help them to pursue it. They are trying to fully utilize their human resource by not wasting every talent and interest the students have!

Meanwhile in Malaysia, at least when I was still in school, people just asked "what's your ambition?", "what you wanted to do in the future?" just to fulfill the introduction requirement for ice breaking. No going further than whats-your-ambition.

Back then there were lots of typical answers: teachers, policemen, pilot, doctors. Even one time I opened Biology textbook to look for an answer, and I picked virologist. (Hey, I did get A for my Bio!). Students were encouraged to have doctor or engineer as their ambition, but were never guided on how to reach them. Oh wait, they did! "If you want to be a doctor you have to get straight A's for SPM!". Fullstop.

That's it. THAT WAS IT.

Watching and reading Kimi Ni Todoke make me realised how much I wasted my teens not planning my life career. How I've been missing on my interests and passions.

Why I said so?

Because after SPM, I didn't know what I wanted to pursue. I've always have this vision of owning a book-cafe, but majoring in Business Admin was not an option (I'm sure my father be against it due to tight job market). I like sciences but I couldn't continue in Matriculation Science stream because the one I got offered was like at the end of the world and my mom wouldn't want it. 

I didn't filled in my UPU with science major because my mom predicted I wouldn't be able to make it, because I had hard time with addmaths (but I do like maths and got B for addmaths). 

And in the end, I guess I was lost and I didn't study well about options available I ended in Islamic courses for my undergrad studies. It's not bad, really, but my weakest point, even weaker than addmaths is Arabic language, so I had to struggle a lot, I even broke down and dysfunction few times.


My point here is, I feel so regretful I didn't find out what I like, what I wanted to do before I finished my SPM. Now, after few years, I know I like maths (always), I like history, arts, business. These are the things that I have passion on and I found it a bit later than I should.

Feeling this way, I think non of my juniors should feel lost after SPM, or feeling discouraged in college, just because it's not what they wanted to do. Students deserve better.

If they say they wanted to be a teacher, then explain to them that they need to go to UPSI for best options, need get straight A's to be accepted. Doctor? A+ for sciences subjects, and if they want to pursue it overseas, see which scholarship suits them, so they know how to strive.

Highschool/Secondary school students need to be guided on how they are going to achieve their ambitions, so they know what they wanted to do. Don't let them study hard for the sake of brilliant SPM results, only to get lost after. Make them study so they can get what they want, so they can do what they wanted to do.

Don't be like me.

Sekolah/School/المدرسة

Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullah dan salam sejahtera :)

Mesti ada yang terfikir, kenapa Kemy buat tajuk sekolah, sedangkan Kemy dah pun habis sekolah. Tunggu keputusan je sekarang. InsyaAllah dapat keputusan cemerlang :)

Sebenarnya, Kemy rindu sangat dekat sekolah. Macam mana boleh rindukan sekolah?

Apa yang Kemy rindu bukanlah mengenai kokurikulum atau kokorikulum, malah tak berkaitan pun. Kemy rindukan pengisian di sekolah Kemy, SMART. Namanya pun cukup gah bagi Kemy.

Bagi Kemy SMART ni sangat istimewa. Mungkin bagi orang lain SMART ni biasa-biasa saja, sebab Kemy pun tak tahu tentang kehebatan sekolah sekolah lain. Setiap sekolah mesti ada keistimewaannya sendirikan? :)

Apa yang istimewa sangat tentang SMART ni?

Sepanjang lima tahun Kemy bersekolah di SMART, Kemy berpendapat sekolah ini sangat mementingkan kerohanian. Banyak program program agama atau kerohanian dijalankan di sekolah. Malah, Kemy masih ingat, masa Kemy di tingkatan 2, JAIP (jabatan Agama Islam Pahang) ada datang buat ceramah, dari pagi sampai habis sekolah. Kalau nak kira kelas Kemy tak terlibat pun dengan ceramah tu. Tapi, disebabkan hari tu memang banyak cikgu Kemy tak ada, jadi ramailah rakan2 kelas Kemy ikut dengar ceramah tu.

Ya Allah, ceramah tu sangat menginsafkan. Tak ada tajuk khusus pun kalau tak silap Kemy. Penceramah tu pandai menyentuh hati dan perasaan kami semua, sampai ramai yang menitiskan air mata, atau dalam bahasa Kemy nangis selok haha sebab rasa insaf sangat, rasa takut sangat dengan Allah. Masa tu memang tak rasa segan langsung nak menangis. Yalah, bukankah di akhirat nanti air mata keinsafan itu akan membela kita insyaAllah?


Kemudian, di SMART juga Kemy dapat tarbiah secara tidak langsung melalui shabat sahabat Kemy dan guru guru. Bukanlah macam usrah atau apa, tapi mereka selalu mengingatkan walau apa pun yang berlaku sentiasa berdoa dan bergantung kepada Allah. Yalah, sekolah SMART bukan sekolah agama, cuma alhamdulillah Kemy duduk di kelas aliran agama.


Lepas itu, Kemy masa sekolah dulu kelas selalu berderet sampai petang kecuali hari Isnin dan Jumaat dari tingkatan 1 lagi. Dan Kemy rasa bersyukur sangat sebab surau di SMART sentiasa hidup dengan solat berjemaah oleh pelajar asrama atau pelajar yang ada kelas macam kelas Kemy. Jadi, setiap kali azan Zohor dan Asar (Zohor tak berpeluang sangat sebab masa tu masih dalam waktu sekolah, tapi kadang2 minta izin dari cikgu), Kemy sentiasa berpeluang untuk solat berjemaah bersama pelajar dan guru yang lain. Yang paling best, masa pelajar maahad yang jadi Imam, ataupun pelajar aliran agama yang jadi imam. MasyaAllah, memang sedap sungguh dengar mereka mengimami solat, walaupun setakat beri takbir, lain tau aura dia. Kemy dengan kawan kawan Kemy selalu teruja tentang siapa imamnya, sampai melebih pula kadang2 huhu.


Kemudian, perkara yang paling Kemy rindu sekali di sekolah SMART, ustaz Aziz dan ustazah Rohana. Sungguh, rindu betul. Sebab masa tahun tahun terakhir di SMART, ustaz Aziz dan ustazah Rohana lah yang paling banyak memberi nasihat dan semangat untuk kami sekelas. Mungkin sebab kamilah peneraju kelas aliran sains agama, jadi kami lebih rapat dengan ustaz dan ustazah.

Ustaz Aziz, selalu bergurau dalam kelas. Rapat sangat dengan budak lelaki. Selalu bagi nasihat tentang jodoh untuk masa hadapan, terutama pada kami perempuan supaya mencari lelaki yang soleh dan tak merokok. Ustaz selalu juga yang 'menganjurkan' jamuan kelas nasi arab dekat surau. Sampai habis semua orang kekenyangan sampai esok harinya. Ustaz selalu juga bercerita tentang kisah2 pelajar lain, supaya kami ambil iktibar. Kemudian, semua soalan berkaitan agama kami tanya kepada ustaz, lepas tu ustaz akan jawab sampai kami puas, atau ustaz rujuk kitab2 ustaz. Seronok juga sebab ustaz selalu bagi kami tengok kitab kitab ustaz, lepas tu ingat lagi ustaz bagi contoh 'pen' khat tradisional iaitu kayu yang dah diasah dan dipotong. Tulisan ustaz dekat papan putih, masyaAllah cantik! Ustaz selalu praktis khat dengan papan putih, cantiknya sampai kami tak rasa susah nak salin tulisan jawi. Banyak lagi yang telah ustaz kongsikan bersama, tapi tak akan cukup untuk ditulis di sini.

Ustazah Rohana pula, yang ajar Arab masa di tingkatan 5. Kelakar juga, sebab ustazah selalu pening kepala macam mana nak ajar kami semua, sebab POV kami teruk! Tak terlintas di hati ustazah yang kami ni sangat teruk Arabnya sebab tahun itulah kami nak hadap SPM. Ustazah banyak berkorban untuk kami, ustazahlah yang mengorbankan masa dan jiwa raga untuk bagi kami betul betul dapat apa yang diajar dari tingkatan 1 sampai 5. Ustazah juga, yang selalu bagi nasihat dan semangat supaya berusaha bersungguh sungguh walaupun harapan macam tipis je untuk sesetengah pelajar kelas Kemy. Hal-hal mengenai perasaan selalu dikongsikan dengan ustazah, ustazahlah kaunselor terbaik! Mungkin ustazah tak perasan, tapi ustazah selalu mencetuskan semangat dalam diri Kemy, ustazah yang selalu memberi kaunseling mengenai akhirat.


Cikgu-cikgu lain pun selalu juga bantu kami. Cikgu Khaizan, cikgu Faridah, teacher Faith, cikgu Hasnah, dan cikgu cikgu lain selalu bagi nasihat supaya sentiasa mengecapi kejayaan. Tapi yang paling seronok, cikgu cikgu semua beri kepercayaan yang tak terhingga dekat kami sekelas sampai kami jawab peperiksaan tanpa pengawasan guru. Kami hargai kepercayaan itu :)


Jadi, sekarang bila dah tamat sekolah, rasa rindu semua itu. Bila ada perseoalan tentang agama atau Arab, tak ada ustaz atau ustazah nak ditanya. Ustaz dan uztazah selalu sabar jawab soalan kami yang pelik2, sampai terfikir Kemy bila dah sambung pelajaran nanti boleh jumpa lagi ke mualim dan mualimah mcm ustaz dan ustazah? Hmm..



SMART, bukan sekolah yang Kemy rindu, tapi apa yang ada di sekolah itu yang mencetuskan kerinduan ini. Mungkin ini bukan sekolah yang terbaik, tapi cukup terbaik sampai menjadikan Kemy hari ini.

Kepada Allah saja Kemy meluahkan kerinduan, Kemy harap sangat kelas aliran sains tulen agama dikekalkan di SMART, dan pelajar2nya sentiasa pandai menjaga diri dan sekolah, sentiasa beradab dan menghormati guru, sentiasa menjadi legend untuk generasi yang seterusnya.


Sampai sini sahaja coretan Kemy, sampai bertemu lagi.

:), assalamualaikum 

Things on my Small Mind

Assalamualikum and greetings.

Im not going to repeat the sentence 'its been a while blablabla' so..... Cliché.

Really,  to be honest, i've got lots and lots of things I want to write and discuss in this so-not-precious blog, but,  I just couldn't find the mood to type/write (this mood right now isnt a real mood since its not an important post) and I just need that mood or something to switch on my writing mode.

Oh Allah please, please, please make me more intro a diligent person so I can satisfy people who subscribe my blog/stories. Uhuhuhu


It has been a week since I got all the ideas and topics that I am really eager to spill out since my friends not here to debate with me  (i know writing in blog wont make someone into debating with me but hey at least I get to get things out of my head) but sometimes Allah just doesnt want me to write yet. Hehe

I mean, things like family things, friends things, clashing facts, no laptop and such (so many excuses) get me in the way from writing.


I still remember during primary school I was so good at writing (in Bhs Mlaysia of course) that I always got 90 and above for every exam (only on year 6). I even write short stories (cerpen) and poems and showed them to my teacher ( just to feel proud hehe) and yeah, one of the story was a really sad one I still remember the storyline up until now.

My mind still worked when the stress level up a bit 2 years later, I even wrote poems during exams just to kill some time on that exact exam paper. Hah. I was so lucky non of the teachers noticed all the   immature thoughts.  Or thats what I thought.


Anyway, *sigh* my skill just deteriorated and all I can write is dull stories and cant work my brain anymore over poems. I've lost my special ability. Huhuhuhu


And, one of the effect is that I no longer update my blog as frequent as I should (even though I do enjoy it), my spirits just changed. Alah, people change. What can I do? Its nature.



Oooh wow. Just when I thought I will only write short post just to give so-called teaser to my lovely readers and just to tell Im still alive and fine thank you, I wrote a very long (long indeed for a lazy person like me) entry and this proved how much I really love writings. Or so. Hm.


Anyway, I cant promise on when and what I'll be writing for the next post. That will depend on my mood (and if ada rezeki lol).

Forgive my ramblings, please, I rarely blabber about myself for public view.

Thats it, i think. Buibui, assalamualaikum. :)

Bahasa Melayu VS Bahasa Inggeris

Assalamualaikum dan selamat sejahtera

Saya ada teringat, beberapa hari sebelum/sedang peperiksaan SPM, saya ada baca satu surat diterbitkan New Straits Times. Dalam surat itu penulis mencadangkan supaya di Legoland Bahasa Melayu dijadikan sebagai bahasa yang digunakan atau bahasa perantaraan.

Beliau berkata sepatutnya di Legoland digunakan Bahasa Melayu sebab Malaysia pun dalam proses untuk memartabatkan Bahasa Melayu dan menggunakan Bahasa Melayu dalam pelbagai bidang.

Masa saya baca surat itu, saya terfikir juga kebenaran kata-kata penulis tu. Sebab Legoland merupakan antara pusat pelancongan yang semakin meningkat namanya, jadi kenapa kita tak guna saja Bahasa Melayu? Secara tak langsung kita boleh mempromosikan dan membudayakan Bahasa Melayu dalam kalangan para peloncong.

Keesokan harinya, dalam akhbar yang sama, ada satu surat membalas usul surat yang sebelumnya. Ringkas sahaja kata-katanya. Beliau menyatakan sebenarnya di Malaysia kita masih tidak boleh membuat Bahasa Melayu sebagai bahasa perantaraan, tetapi tidak untuk Bahasa Inggeris. Di Legoland, hanya Bahasa Inggeris digunakan kerana majoriti pengunjungnya lebih memahami Bahasa Inggeris berbanding Bahasa Melayu.

Tambah beliau, penggunaan Bahasa Melayu tidak boleh diperluaskan selagi penggunanya sendiri ( penduduk Malaysia) tidak menggunakan dengan betul. Bahasa Inggeris boleh diperluaskan dan dijadikan sebagai bahasa antarabangsa kerana tiada perubahan yang dilakukan oleh pengguna ibundanya sendiri (native user). Sedangkan di Malaysia, berapa banyak slang atau istilah-istilah baharu yang aneh-aneh direka oleh pengguna Bahasa Melayu. Kadangkala, perkataan yang digunakan tidak masuk akal.

Bila saya baca isi surat itu, rasa terpempan sekejap. Apa yang beliau katakan itu benar.

Macam mana kita nak 'mengetengahkan' penggunaan Bahasa Melayu, sedangkan kita sendiri tidak menggunakannya dengan betul. Kalau tak kenapa boleh wujudnya istilah 'bahasa baku'? Berapa ramai yang sebenarnya menggunakan bahasa baku dalam ungkapan harian?

Bahasa Melayu hari ini sudah jauh rosak dari Bahasa Melayu yang asalnya. Semua ni boleh dilihat dengan jelas terutamanya dalam laman web sosial seperti Facebook dan Twitter. Sikap yang terlalu malas nak tulis dengan betul menjadi punca kepunahan linguistik sehingga terbawa-bawa ke dalam kehidupan seharian.

Sekarang dah menjadi tanggungjawab semua orang memperbetulkan penggunaan Bahasa Melayu. Saya sendiri pun kadangkala tersalah guna istilah atau tatabahasa yang sesuai. Asalkan kita berusaha untuk memartabatkan Bahasa Melayu, itu yang penting.

Masyarakat yang bertamadun ialah masyarakat yang mempunyai bahasanya sendiri.

Dan susah tentunya media massa menjadi peranan yang penting dalam usaha mendidik masyarakat Malaysia memartabatkan Bahasa Melayu. Sejak kebelakangan ini (sejak habis SPM), bila saya tengok rancangan di televisyen terutamanya rancangan bual bicara, ramai yang tidak menggunakan Bahasa Melayu dengan betul. Malah ada yang menyelitkan penggunaan Bahasa Inggeris (spt ; so, then, you, I) walaupun rancangan itu rancangan berbahasa Melayu.

P/s : Terasa sangat skema ketika menulis entri kali ini. Tapi terpaksa juga meluahkan pandangan yang sudah terpendam lama. Huhu

 

BooksBooks!

Assalamualaikum.

These last few days I feel so frustrated and tempting every time i opened my twitter account.
Why?

Because BigBadWolf kept updating on whats going on on the book fair!!!

oh! this is so unfair!

For people who still doesn't know, BigBadWolf is the largest bookfare i've ever known in this world with the cheapest price for each items.

For example, last year my sisters and I bought a full trolly (the one that people often used at nightmarket) of books, for not more than RM300. That is cheap okay!

Even for a hard-cover 300 pages book costs at least RM8! Where else can we book lovers shop books at such low price?

Back to my despair, BigBadWolf has started its operation in Malaysia at 5th Disember at Mines and ends this 15th Disember. The best part of it is it operates for 24 hours except for the first day and last day. So no excuses to all those workers and students.

(Even I went to the fare at 1 a.m last year)

And this year I couldnt go there!!! There's so much things need to be done by this month, and if i did had the free time, no one wants to send me there.. :(


But then... hehe... there are still lots of books in this house that I havent read yet. Its not that Im being picky or bratty, but most of these books are so serious, too adventurous, or its about real story that happened to somebody...

Im just in the mood for relaxing, a bit cheesy but not cliche books. And in the mean time I have to released my temptation through wattpad, a site full of unpublished stories. BUT MOST OF THEM ARE CLICHE STORIES!! ugh.


Anyway, yeah I cant do anything about this.

And Im craving for Ramlee Awang Mursyid too. My Bahasa Melayu skill starting to rust ever since SPM ended. *sigh*

I dont know when I am going to post in Bahasa Melayu. I shouldnt do this.

*self reflect

Lab Report Physic

concept: inertia
relationship: mass and inertia

inference: The inertia depends on its mass

hypothesis: When the mass increases, its inertia also increases

Aim: To study the realtionship between mass and period of oscillation

Variables : Manipulated - Mass, m
Responding - Period of oscillation, T
Fixed - The distance of the centre of plasticine bob to the point where the hacksaw blade is clamped

Apparatus and Materials : Hacksaw blade, G clamp, Table, metre rule, stop watch, plasticine, triple beam balance

Arrangement of Apparatus : *please refer to the picture upload*

Procedures :
1. The experiment is set up as shown in the diagram above.
2. A 20g mass of plasticine bob is weighed.
3. The plasticine bob is then attached to the free end of the hacksaw blade.
4. The plasticine bob is displaced.
5. The time for 10 oscillations, t is taken.
6. The period od oscillation, T is the calculated.
7. The results is recorded in the table below.
8. The experiment is repeated using plasticine mass, m of 30g, 40g, 50g, 60g.
9. Care is taken so that the distance between the centre of the plasticine bob and the point where tha hacksaw blade is clamped is always the same throughout the experiment.

Tabulation : *refer to the picture taken/upload*

Analysis.

1. A graph of T(squared) against m is drawn.
2. From the graph,
a) determine the value of period of oscillation, T when mass, m = ____ g
b) determine the value of mass, m when period of oscillation, T is ____ s .

3. Calculate the gradient of the graph.

Conclusion :

Precautions : -avoid parallex error
-repeat experiment

untuk tabulation : t/s (tukarkan kpd) > 10 oscillation 

T/s (tukarkan kpd) > 1 period of oscillation

value of t/s (ke bwh) > 4.00 5.08 5.26 5.82 6.04

value of T/s (ke bwh) > 0.40 0.58 0.52 0.58 0.60

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assalamualaikum

this is what we called exam

assalamualaikum
and good.. night *because im writing this at 10 pm*

today is saturday, and the exam for term 1b was over, this 10:30 morning.

ahh..
its a tiring week actually, yet a 'peaceful' week.
why?

because i dont have to feel the urge to finish all my homeworks, and i can live my life this week with a silent situation everyday and night.
the only thing that i have to do was only study for the subjects i have taken

monday, its bm and math. bm? hmm okay la not bad. i think there's one or two question/s that i had left without answering it. oh yeah the one that the answer is 'di mana bumi dipijak di situ langit di junjung'. that time i was seriously stress because i cant find that peribahasa in my brain. duh. so, i just left it, unanswered.

for math, i dont think i have something to say for this paper.. :) insyaAllah i'll get A for this.. :D

tuesday, english p.e and chemistry. the p.e paper *pjk*, ohh seriously i think most of the question i shoot it falsely lol. the one who can answer p.e paper correctly like 90% and above can be a doctor. doctor-to-be.

chemistry,,,, i love this subject. there are some questions that i didnt answer, but maybe i'll get B at least. oh please A!!!

wednesday is for PSI PQS and biology. . for that bio paper, i didnt study for that paper like.. errr.. ugh. i did study tuesday's evening at school. but at home i didnt wake up as i slept so early like 9 pm. so, tawakal je la.  sorry cik Faridah for disappointing u :'(

the day before yesterday was history and physic. wahh.. these both papers are seriously.. i really cant get A for it. history- there's some question 'bout india which is i didnt read about it really and i was quite confuse between tamadun hwang ho and china. urghhh
physics-  i think i left the procedure in paper 3 and i think i draw the retort stand weirdly? 'cause i dont remember how does the clamp look like. huhu

got to cry for these subjects..

yesterday, Friday was for BA and sivik. ahh guys please tell me who did study for sivik last time?? i dont think anyone did. so, apa lagi tembak la kan? haha.. BA?? wow my composition not bad actually 'cause i made it to 154 words.. woohoo *but of course i dont expect it to be 50 marks right? huhu*

lastly, today!! ADDITIONAL MATHEMATIC!! ok this one also i will not get A for this. there were some questions which are i dont know how to calculate it and i just bantai je what ever i want to write as long as there are jalan kira. at least i'll get marks for it right??



ok. even though this is the first examination for this year, first exam since i've become an upper form high school, i dont want to get my result with a 'swimming colour' ...

because everyone like almost everyone said 'xpe.. exam first' , 'alaa exam 1b je kot' , 'standard la tu form 4 ada fail'. ok the last statement is agak.. erm.. xpelah

i dont want to get any fail ,  at least! and i want 3 A's for this exam. but i dont know if i can get that.

this is because, i dont want to fail make my parents happy, make my friends proud, especially fairy *ya Allah i miss her so much*. and i seriously dont want my teachers think that im a lazy stupid student like the others *others??*.

starting this year, i want to try my best in my studies. my friends in KISAS and MRSM Taiping *nabellah* inspired me to work hard. the green cereals always support me no matter what even though i know they think that i am a bit fierce? ok i am. huhu. anyway, my friends and my family always tell me to try hard or harder in exam, try to make them proud, try to tackle the teacher *eh?*

ahh i <3 them so much!!!


p/s i think starting now i have to be more active in blogging since there's a certain person said that he/she will see my update through my blog since he/she's leaving far away from me... :'(

thats all then buibui
assalamualaikum

Graphic class

assalamualaikum :)

minggu lepas, Kemy ada join kelas grafik dekat sekolah, dari isnin sampai khamis, pukul 8 30 sampai 4.
kemy join pun sbenarnya sbb ayah kemy y letak nama kemy, 'huhu', sbb masa mula2 dgr pasal kelas grafik sebelum habis sekolah dulu xde pulak rasa berminat.

tapi bila dh join ni, mcm best pulak, sampai rasa rindu *gituu

masa hari isnin, ehem. nak kata berdebar tu err ada lah mula2, tp try relaks kan diri , yakinkan diri insyaAllah boleh survive dlm kelas ni. sbb, tak ada pun kawan2 kemy y join kelas tu kecuali siti sarah, which is sbb dia join pun sama je dgn sbb kemy. *kekekee.. plus, kemy ni xdela hebat sgt pasal grafik2 ni, sbb masa form 1 form 2 dulu, masa kelas literasi komp, kalau cikgu Ramly ajar psl photoshop or flash, huhu.. x pernah masuk.

sedihnyee.. tp xdela sampai x masuk langsung. mula2 mmg la masuk, pastu lupa balik.. *lol

so, masa hari isnin tu, mm.. Puan Hawa *org y handle kelas tu* mmperkenalkan diri dgn rakan2 beliau, ehem. Puan Hawa ni mrupakan seorang usahawan y berjaya and ada syarikat *of course la ada syarikat kata usahawan* and Puan Hawa ni slalu dpt tempahan utk buat banner or papan tanda or whtsoever for example papan tanda Pantai Balok y besar tu, syarikat Puan Hawa la y buat *dgn bangganya haha*

ok lps tu ptg tu sbenarnye ada kerja nk kena buat dgn photoshop, tp kemy dgn kak Nana tgk kpop lol.

photoshop tu kitorang kena buat banner utk sekolah, kena ada pemandangan sekolah or tempat2 kat sekolah, ada pengetua2.. hehe. ni y klakar ni. pengetua tu, kitorang buat pengetua Haji Bahtiar angkat gn tunjuk kat tgh. which is kitorang kena tangkap gambar pengetua posing mcm tu. nasib baik pengetua sporting :) <3

then hari kedua, Puan Hawa ajar mcm mana nk guna Corel Draw, sbb kelas grafik ni mmg guna photoshop n corel draw je. so, Puan Hawa pun ajar la Corel Draw dgn pantas dan efisyen tp ada la plak budak ni *hisy* pergi block pmandangan kemy and beberapa akak2 yang lain. mentang2 dia tinggi lol .

ptg hari kedua tu kitorang dpt assignment kitorang y kena guna corel draw bertemakan sukan sekolah. ada org kena buat kereta, botol air, banner, tshirt, topi and so on. kemy? kena buat poster. hehe. so, adalah org2 tertentu y kemy kacau mintak gambar sukan *kemy baru prasan y kemy x de gambar sukan huhu*

then hari ketiga kemy x dtg atas sebab2 tertentu hehe... *Siti n Kak Nana n Kak Afifah je tahu.. hehehehe :)

hari keempat (hari last), kitorang siapkan kerja sukan sekolah tu, then kena buat bussiness card. and kena buat kertas kerja. hoho. kemy bantai je kertas kerja tu. bussiness card? simple gila. bussines card kak Nana dgn siti cantek. :)

then, smentara tunggu Puan Hawa datang, skali lagi kemy dgn kak Nana kembali ke dunia kpop hahaha.. alang2 kak Nana bawak laptop kan hehe..
sampai kitorang slalu kena perli dlm kelas ' hah! kpop lagi' , 'tgk kpop!'.. haha.. tp kitorang kena berhati2 takut nnt Puan Hawa masuk atau cikgu Ramly masuk. klkar gile. :)

padahal org lain siap tgk movie lagi.. apala budak2 smart ni.. *keje dh siap, apa lagi, enjoy lee..

bila Puan Hawa dtg, kitorang kena present kerja2 kitorang. hehe.

then bergambar.

serious kemy kata, best sgt klas ni. semua org sporting.

y join kelas ni Asyraf (adik qurrat), Imran, Hairidz, Syafiq (tongga hehe), Saiful, Kak Afifah, Kak Adlina, Kak Nana, dgn Siti. (nama y kemy list ni nama y kemy igt hehe.. ada lagi sbenarnya :) :) :)  )

ok then. tu je psl klas grafik ni. kemy rasa spatutnya dia sambung sampai hari jumaat tu. huhu.

ok lah. buibui
assalamualaikum :)

*HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE SEUNG HYUN!! (seungri bigbang :) <3 <3)

زعيم

assalamualaikum and salam sjahter and salam 1 malaysia and ~~~

hari ni ade aktiviti larian 1murid 1sukan 1malaysia..
so, dgn penat lelahlah bdn ni pergi berlari terkedek2 sepanjang 2.5 km tu..
hukhuk

ok..
post kali ni kemy nk citer psl za'im, which means pemimpin. (za'im tu dlm bhs arab...)

pemimpin.. hmm
org slalu kata pemimpin tu adalah seorang yang ade tanggungjawab terhadap org lain. or kalau ikut dlm kamus dewan, pemimpin adalah seorang yang memimpin.

but, to me, everyone is a leader.
yelah..
seorang guru merupakan pemimpin untuk anak-anak muridnya.
ibu dan bapa pula bertanggungjawab untuk memimpin anak-anak mereka.
sng citer semua lah!

semua orang adalah pemimpin. tiada yang terkecuali

walaupun orang tu teruk mana pun, dia (beliau:sbb pemimpin kan?) ttp pemimpin.

pimpin sapa?
yalah.. kan kemy kata seteruk teruk orang pun dia (beliau) tetap pemimpin.

pimpin sapa lagi kalau bukan diri sendiri.

everyone mestilah pimpin diri sendiri.
pimpin diri untuk berdikari
belajar
berfikir scara logik
menjadi seorang yang baik
or apa-apa shj yang menuju ke arah kebaikan.

sbb, kalau kita asyik depend on org lain utk pimpin diri kita, for sure kita tak akan berubah.
we need to set our mind that kita harus pimpin diri kita dahulu barulah kita pimpin orang or orang pimpin kita.

kalau kita pimpin org but diri kita?
baik x payah..

kemy bukan apa tau..
slalu sgt jumpa org yang belum lagi berjaya memimpin orang y dibawah tanggungjawabnya, tp nk tambah lagi tanggungan.

mcm mana plak tu?

kita kan spatutnya mengubah diri kita kepada keadaan yang terbaik, memimpin diri kita dahulu dgn berjaya. so kita akan menjadi contoh yang baik utk org yang kita pimpin.

kalau x, mcm mana orang y dpimpin oleh kita akan menjadi seorang hamba yang baik, taat akan perintah Allah?

tu pun satu.. sesetengah org, bila dh jadi pemimpin, dh lupa akan Allah. dh lupa bhw dia spatutnya memimpin seseorang berlandaskan syariat Islam.. x ke gitu?

igtlah pepatah melayu, : raja itu akar, rakyat itu dahannya..
tukarlah raja itu kpd pemimpin, rakyat itu kpd orang y dpimpin..
kalau rosak akar itu, maka rosaklah dahannya.

sekian..
*best pule bersyarah.. :))
*kongsi pendapat.. :) kalau ada salah betulkan yee.. :D

assalamualaikum. :)))))))))))))))

medic school?

assalamualaikum and good~~ (midnight? )

these few days, kemy ada dpt tahu that almost all universities in m'sia close their medic school till 2016. yelah, skrang ni ramai org berebut2 nk ambik course medic. so skrang ni boleh dkatakan penuh. n djangkakan thn 2012 (knp la asyik 2012??? ) doktor kat m'sia ni cukup...

sebelum ni kan kat m'sia ni x cukup doktor.. and skrang bila nk cukup, terpaksa tutup buat sementara waktu.

so, sape2 y bercite2 jd doktor tu, sila pilih another course. isy~ terpakse gadaikan cita2. (mayb bukan rezeki kan?)

kalau ikut batch kemy plak, habis matrix (kalau masuk la, but hrp2 masuk :) ) baru 2015. kalau nk sgt ambik medic tu, sng citer ambik je oversea. tu pun result kene power abis. nnt x psl2 kene reject..

kemy post bukan apa... kemy nk inform kat mereka2 y nk jadi doktor. especially cik fairy ni.. dr dulu nk jadi doktor.. huhu



p/s: nk psychology
p/s/s: exam dh habis.. but, 2 bulan lagi exam kkq.. adehh~~ dh la exam kali ni kkq cam ~~~~

buibui!
assalamualaikum